After the hair show this weekend, and running around with my old, old, OLD school Canon Rebel XT taking pictures, I came to a realization.
I got my tax refund a little while ago. $1300 straight into my bank account. Now, I’m decidedly poor – I own exactly enough clothes to get me through the week, I don’t own a car, and I eat the cheapest food you can think of. So getting $1300 that I wasn’t prepared for is quite a shock, and I’ve spent weeks agonizing over every possible thing I could do with it – New glasses (mine are broken), new clothes (my shirts are eventually going to just be a pile of loose threads), a car (Ha!), tools for hairdressing, paying off the debt that I’ve racked up going to hair school…
What did I do with it? Here’s what I did with it:
And I ended up stretching my finances more than a bit – I’ve got about $100 to live off of until my next paycheck. I’ve got no savings, I’m living paycheck to paycheck. I thought about what to use the money for more than most people think about anything. I knew what the smart thing to do was, but I also knew what the right thing to do was.
I had been trying to convince myself that I don’t want to be a photographer anymore, and that I should focus entirely on hair, but I now realize that I can’t do that because being a photographer is who I am, and I believe it will ultimately contribute as much to my success in life as being a hairstylist will. Some day, anyway. I just have to work extra hard to make myself better at both things.